Great Xmas news!

YeY! I got a replacement leave on Christmas Day!
It means alot!
I'm back celebrating the birth of baby Jesus with my lovely family! heee :)

3 months+ of absence & I'm back

Wow! It’s been like 3 months plus since I last updated my post! And it was in UK. What a pity…I missed that place very much. But life needs to move on. I do know some of you dropped by to ‘check’ weather I’ve updated. Luckily my stats counter is still working. –phew!- Anyway, thanks for dropping by fellas. Really, really appreciate it.

Where shall I begin??? Ok. I’m officially WORKING. Yes, work. Work like a mad. work work work.. D would always hear me jabbing and jabbing the keyboard and I could hear her clicking the mouse. LOL. Oh, I’m glad that D is here in the same department with me. *glee* A great friend. I’m not complaining..my job does has pros and cons. I do get some privileges, which others don’t get.*pats back =)

Not that I’ve never work before. But this job is different. It’s A fresh path and stepping-stone to gain more experience, know more people and expending my network. A field that once I dreamt of (5 years back.)

My working skills deteriorate as compared to previous working experience. I used to be quite bold, detailed and not-so-blur. Since staring this job, I’m the totally opposite Lydia that you know. Did a few minor mistakes here and there.. >_< But that’s going to change. Can’t act like a little innocent girl anymore… (but let me still be a little girl at heart OK!) All right, back to my job…. After working, I’ll head back to my room feeling tired after hard days of work. If I still have the energy, I’ll head to this place where basically all the grown ups are. (cuz I have no better place to go) I missed the yamcha session, the late night movies, and the chill out session back downtown. It’s like my nightlife has been strip off!! Grrr… Don’t even have the time to meet my buddies from hometown when they were in KL. Terrible friend I am. Don’t talk about dates. That subject totally fails at the moment.. -Sigh-

Christmas is just 4 days away…Xmas shopping is just so impossible now. And it will be my first Christmas celebration without family members around me.. cuz u know what?! I’m working……>.<

50p CC

I'm so deprive for internet connection..in london now. Russell square accomodation to be precise. it's gonna be my last day here in London. need to pay 50p for internet connection for unlimited time. The shower is the worst ever..can't control the volume..like kena dera by air panas only. :S (At least the hostel here is much way better in Belfast!)

What to do...kita 6 orang di sini semua backpacking.. we are only allowed to carry one..ONE freaking luggage on Ryan Air.. Ryan Air is so mafan... If wanna check in luggage need to pay extra £20. O_o Advise for future travellers of Ryan Air, please be there to check in at least 2 hours earlier..They have at least 3 check points before you board into their plane...

I know my post this time is jumbled up. I really don't know what to write actually..I'll just update my status via FB IF i need to go CC.. hehehhe...kla..byebye for now. Paris tomorrow! :D

Summer ends in Liverpool

My title says it all. I'm going to miss this beautiful place very much. The windy & chilly weather, ladies waking proudly with their hair curlers, the Scouse language, late club hoppings, the crazy moments in the kitchen while cooking dinner for housemates, fish & chips and other foods that contribute in making me grow side ways..hahaha. it's my last day here. all those other beautiful experiences that I had would be kept in my memory forever. :)

student status had just been stripped off yesterday. Tomorrow's status would be a traveler. Will be away for 3 weeks to discover other parts of the world..

I'm going to "See the breathtaking scenery of Ireland, explore the busy city of London, Tuck into a picnic next to the Eiffel Tower, Breathe the clean air of the Swiss Alps, Explore the medieval city of Avignon, Soak up the sun on the French Riviera, Discover the cultural gems of Florence, Check out Rome and the Vatican City."

OOo...

kla, gonna continue packing.
hee..

Selamat tinggal Liverpool.

will blog once i'm back in Boleh Land.

hear me????!!

At times, i just don't want to argue..
shut up will do.
& walk away.
No point of advising or talking back at them.
wasting my time.
you can't put some sense in them cuz they always think that they are right riGHT RIGHT.
all i can do is to hide at the corner,
the invinsible corner,
the place where i call my room.
all by myself.
i can do jovial things in here.
but deep deep inside, im not contented at all.
i just need someone trustable to talk to..
to release my anger..
but seems that this time..
no one is around..
weird hour.
feel so lonely.
ish.

Beauty & The Beast.

Beauty & The Beast performance at the Empire Theater was superb! My heart & soul focuses from the beginning to the end of the play. The setting was so real, costumes were beautiful & bright, actor & actresses were pretty & charming, the orchestra blended well with the singers. I hummed the songs to myself. thinking about where is my beast?? Just that it's not the right time yet. hahaha.. It was the best play. Unfortunately no pictures were allowed to be taken while the performance was running. I can only imagine the whole beautiful scene to myself..

Back Row: Josephine, Kumu, Emily, Elizbeth Front row: See Yun, me & Sharon

Can't wait for STOMP in London. Now I'm thinking whether to get my all time favourite Phantom of the Opera tickets. ish. Why don't money just drop from the sky???

This is what im facing now..

Class cancelled today.. At least I have some space to breathe.

Life is getting tougher and tougher. I'm worried I can't bear the level of stressfulness that I need to face. I know that everyone here started to worry. The word stress can be heard every single day. Reaching here to gain great experience in life is like stressing myself out, testing our mental strength. Education is like that i guessed unless you are one smart brainy genius ass that has no worries and problems at all in solving or attempting questions. Some couldn't take it and cried quietly in their own rooms. Mental torture. Few hours of sleep, the stack of assignmentsssss. Most major assignments due dates are all cramped within this month. I'm angry. angry at the way tutors mark their work. There's no standardization in marking our assignments. Yes, No STANDARDIZATION. each tutors have their own way of marking the papers. 'there's no right and wrong answers' they claimed. I know that at this level we must possess critical and analytical thinking in our work. But if we argue with scholars and the points supports other scholars & we adding in our own explanation, wouldn't it be good?? Apa lagi mereka mahu dari kita?? I felt that this course has too much of hybrid in many areas till we ourselves are still finding for answers. No wonder it's not called a 'professional job' just like doctors, engineers, and lawyers. Plus, I'm Angry at myself for not being at my best. I work hard but still could not achieve the expectation that i wanted..Am I setting my aims too high?? No. Am I being too paranoid? Strike at the punching bag a few times that i can't even feel the pain at all until i saw blood between my forth and tiny finger that i stop. Telling myself that it will heal by itself just like the experience that I'm facing now. Feel tired of studying. Study, I need to sit.. sit.. & sit which i don't like. Of course I do walk around in my room but it somehow restricted my freedom.hmmm..such a dilemma girl now.

Sometimes, it's hard to express my feelings to friends out here. I look strong outside but inside, it's like a tornado at times. Being considerate, I choose not to bugged them cause I know we are on the same boat, facing the same difficulties, & obstacles that we mush accomplish. I know some of you might be reading this but again, don't worry about me, not that I'm going to do stupid stuffs. I still love myself no matter what happens.

22 days left. I can make it. You too can make it. Let us lift our spirit & motivation high, be inspired by the song 'The world's greatest'. =)